28 MORE DAYS OF MISERY AND PAIN

I'm slowly counting down the days till the removal of my cast... It's very irritating 'cause I have to move around with crutches and it itches.. The good thing is I get to take the cab to and fro everyday.. But then again it costs a BOMB man.. It's scraping me BROKE big time..

So this was what actually happened.. I had a friendly hockey game against TPJC on Saturday 5th August.. To cut it short, I fell when I slipped on the hockey ball and twisted my ankle.. Haha.. I bet y'all are trying to imagine how I would have looked like..Yea so it was a FREAK accident but it hurt like hell.. I twisted my ankle inwards, excuse me!

And it led to a whole string of events after that.. I missed my French test (I just sat for my retest today by the way) and my LCOMM assessment #4A too.. My practice rehearsals and gigs with Rendezvous are also affected.. And RGM and me are going through bad times now too.. I really hope these are all temporary phases of my life.. 'Cause I can't bear disbanding RGM.. Sheeshh.. I'm going to have to stop being so paranoid and return to my optimistic attitude...

I guess that is all I can post for today.. My mind is entangled with a whole lot of other things to worry about what to blog... So till the next time.. Ciao... UnReAl
6:10 PM

Topsy-Turvy Life As It Is

I know I haven't updated in awhile.. And that's because I've been very busy lately.. I'm only updating because Winsor asked me to.. Haha..So read on Winsor..

Weekends ever since I left Barnone:-
I managed to survive my weekends since I left Barnone.. But it's not easy to do so without having to think about how much fun I've missed working with everyone in Barnone.. Hope everyone misses me too.. But I did find something to occupy myself so that I don't think of Barnone too much and that is by forming my BAND..

My Band, R.G.M ( Retrograde Motion):-
So R.G.M came about as of 5th July 2006.. Started out with me, Mizi, Yasin, Leon and Dominic jamming together.. Then Dominic and Leon left because they wanted to do something else of their own.. And following that, we lost Yasin because he had too many other commitments.. Now we're finally settled with 6 members and they are me on female vocals, Zac on male vocals, Mizi on lead guitar, Hafiz on bass guitar, Farhan on keyboards and Helmi on drums.. Trust me, these guys are great..Girls, wait till you listen to Zac's voice.. He'll instantly melt your hearts away.. Anyways we're looking into performing in clubs and all and hopefully to pentrate into the music industry so look out for us aight..

My Gig at Chijmes Le Baroque on Thursday 13 July 2006:-
It was a blast! I had my first singing experience in a club at Chijmes Le Baroque.. It was an honour to have been given that opportunity.. True Colours was a wonderful band and they made me feel welcome..Especially Rudy, the male vocalist.. Gave me some helpful tips and guided me along..Overall I had a lot of fun that night.. What made it more special was that Mummy and Zac were there to watch me and they thought I was pretty great for a first-timer.. Can't wait to do it again with the band Rendezvous this week..

The Other Band, Rendezvous:-
Now this is another band that I'll be playing with.. They're really cool people although they're way older than I am..But still they're very helpful and are willing to help me upgrade myself.. They even introduced me to genres I've never done before like Jazz, Blues, Country etc..So I'm really looking forward to all these turning points of my life..

So yea I guess that is about it for now.. Gotta head down for jamming practice now.. Till the next time.. UnReAl
5:33 PM

Zhilong, Me and Shannen

The bartenders flinging Shannen about

Sharil, wanted DEAD or ALIVE

ME and MY farewell CAKE

The servers (from left to right): Sham, Shannen, Naresh, ME, Isa, Fish, Zhi Long and Achily

If you want more pictures, check out my ALBUM aight..

UnReAl
4:54 PM

I hate goodbyes especially when I'm having so much fun.. I have to leave Barnone, all thanks to Daddy, whom suddenly decided that he wants me to quit working in Barnone.. And I can't believe that Friday is going to be my last day there.. I am so going to miss every single one of them there.. Especially Syam... Yea so just when I thought I had a lil feeling for Syam, I have to go.. I don't know how it started 'cause afterall I was the one who thought that Syam was so arrogant and obnoxious.. But then as the days went by, it was actually quite fun working with him.. Well at least when he is in a good mood..

He just has this charming smile and that aura of charm.. And not forgetting the fact that he is quite good-looking.. He has also got his own sense of style in dressing and is confident of himself.. Yea so he really is not a bad figure at work afterall..

And then there is Max who I am also going to miss so badly when I leave Barnone.. 'Cause Max has always been my sunshine.. Never fails to put a smile on my face.. His jokes and teasings and the looks on his face.. Haha.. Gonna miss our little game of catch alot..

And I am definitely going to miss Shannen.. She is a great Captain although sometimes a lil scary for someone of such a small size.. She has taught me alot throughout the months.. Making sure no one bullies me yet at times she is the BIG BULLY.. Haha..

OOOOhhh all the memories I had working at Barnone.. I never thought I would have to leave them so soon.. I just hope I remain in their thoughts, the way they would remain in mind.. All the farewell parties, birthday celebrations and fucking-up briefings will stay with me.. Sheeesh.. Now I am getting a lil melodramatic.. Have to end this entry before I start bursting into tears..
Till the next time.. Or you can also check me up at http://jamaican-beauty.livejournal.com. UnReAl
6:33 PM

For the sake of those who are unaware of my new Live Journal account, I've made the attempt to copy and paste my entries for the past few days to share with you all..

Have you ever felt that you've waited for someone long enough?? Too long for you to even bear??? And that just when you've given up every hope and learnt to move on, it comes back to haunt you??? If you have, perhaps you can help me out here..See this was what happened yesterday..

After so long, me and Alif (my first crush) were finally in touch again and we went out for a movie yesterday.. We met at SP and rode on his bike (a black KR) and headed down to Jurong Entertainment Centre to watch X-Men The Last Stand.. Had our meal at KFC and we were reminiscing on the times we had in primary school.. We even recalled how he and his group of friends used to pick on me so much.. It was fun actually.... Till..... I started to develop butterflies in my tummy..

Initially, I passed it off as being excited for being able to reunite with an old friend.. In fact an old flame to be precise.. But what I wasn't counting on was for the meeting to be the cause of that old flame being rekindled.. And honestly, the more I try to deny my feelings for him, the worse I felt.. And what's worst was I'm guilty of fantasizing him kissing me.. Hah! Now I feel as if I was 9 again, only that I'm stuck in a woman's body.. What the heck!

And so came the part when Solihin joined us and that's because we didn't know what else to do after the movie.. SO we met IN at Lot 1 CCK and had another meal at Long John Silver's, which by the way was on IN.. Apparently IN's presence helped to ease the tension a little but I was secretly wishing that I could feel at ease around Alif even without IN around.. We stayed out for about an hour and then Alif sent me home.. How I wished the ride home could last forever.. I didn't want to go home just yet but I knew I had to.. I wanted the day to last as long as it could but the sad truth is I know it couldn't.. And so as I thanked him for spending the day with me, I included a hint by saying "We should do this again some time".. The smile that I got in response set me floating as I head up the lift for home..

I don't know what it is about him that made me feel this way.. Afterall it was 10 long years ago when I had a crush on him.. I guess I can blame it on the fact that he was my first crush and so it's probably hard to get over him.. Just like it has been tough for me to get over my first love, first valentine and first kiss.. Ok so now I know I sound like a hopeless romantic and that this is not quite thew side of me that anyone has seen..

Well so I guess it is really complicated huh... This is when I'll need my baby girls to stand by me and advise me... So post in the comments babes.. Till the next time.. Cause Leon is bugging me now to go and have a meal with him.. Haha.. What a Loser! So I gotta go now.. Ciao... UnReAl
3:00 PM

I hate that rule alot.. It seems like everyone I know is applying that rule in their life.. A couple of days ago, Arun was telling me about it and only last night, HE had to bring up about it..( HE here is not Arun so don't misunderstand alright )

HE: I have one rule, that I don't date colleagues
Me: So many rules? If it happens, it happens.. Things like this we can't control..
We just have to be professional about it. It's not that difficult..
HE: Trust me, it's that difficult..

I mean what the fuck does he mean by that?? Why tell me all this now?? I don't see how it's gonna help me get over him.. But I guess I managed to get over the depression, though it's now been replaced by anger and disgust..I'll need some help here people.. Share your views with me on the application of this rule.. Post your comments, tag or whatever..

So you can imagine that I would have a bad start today.. Was relying on my dad to send me to school so I can make it on time to submit my pre-lab work.. But as usual, daddy's got other plans so I had to grab a cab to school.. Cost me a fucking $22.70.. What the heck! Then had to rush and print my stuff.. Just made it at 10am..

Oh yeah had my first try at interviewing the client today during LCOM.. Wasn't that bad.. Could have done better though but I guess my mind's not in school today.. I didn't even have fun during French lecture this morning...

Guess that's all for today.. I'm gonna ease my mind by knocking around with my hockey stick and ball.. Till the next entry.. UnReAl
6:23 PM

I know I know.. I deserve a slap for not updating my blog in months but I can't help it if my computer won't work right? Yea so it's a lame excuse but dig this.. I was too busy working my ass off day and night during the holidays.. I swear.. Even my friends and cousins think I look like a walking scarecrow.. I swore I looked as if I haven't slept for months.. But hey the money was pretty good.. Think I'm gonna update you more on my new workplace..

BARNONE:
It's a slammin' place to work in.. The crowd's good, tips pretty generous and my workmates are a crazy lot.. Love every single one of them.. I even got a wee lil' crush on my supervisor.. Haha..
Can't help it man.. He's cute and he's got style.. Sheesh.. So much style that it swept me off my feet.. Back to more description of the place.. The band's amazing.. Love the music.. I just simply love the environment so much.. You people should really check it out.. Dominic, Vani, Radah and Smitha did pop by on Friday.. Hope they enjoyed the place as much as I do.. Take note though, cover charge on Friday and Saturday at $20 for ladies and $25 for gentlemen.. And yea you gotta be 21 years and above unless you know some insider... Haha..

BEDROOM/PLAYROOM:
Oooooohh la la... It was cool.. Max and Sharil brought me there after work on Saturday night.. Didn't stay too long though.. Had a couple of Vodka Redbull.. There was this guy, Bernard, who thinks I'm like the sweetest thing.. Keeps calling me 'Kecik' though.. That's small in Malay.. Liked the idea of being called 'Sweetie' but wasn't really with the idea of being called 'Kecik'.. Anyways the boys there were pretty eye-catching, though they were pretty much 'Mats'.. Come to think about it, it's been awhile since a Mat last caught my attention.. But oh boy, the Mats last Saturday DID catch my attention.. Haha.. That is SO Minah-like NISA!!!

All righty now.. Gotta go.. That's cause I kinda ran out of what to write.. But I promise I'll update tomorrow.. Afterall I've got a FOUR hour BREAK tomorrow.. Wonder what I should do.. Well till then.. UnReAl
5:10 PM